2015 has been quite an odd year for me, there's been definite ups & downs but I feel like I've learnt a lot this year, I've discovered more about who I am and it's been a valuable time.
I started 2015 not feeling particularly happy - I felt trapped, anxious and scared of the future. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I was extremely ill, had constant chronic fatigue and I was feeling lost. A few months into the year I was diagnosed with coeliac disease, which obviously was a horrible thing to be diagnosed with but I was so relieved to finally get answers.
I've realised now I'm actually grateful for the diagnosis, I'm not happy I've got coeliac by any means, but it did bring me to this healthy way of life which I can only be thankful for.
2015 was the year I embarked on a plant-based diet and a more active lifestyle - I educated myself on nutrition, got more into yoga, became fitter and stronger, learnt to cook and found things I'm so passionate about.
Not only did this new way of living change how I feel physically but I can now say I rarely suffer with depressive episodes and anxiety. They're definitely not gone for good; they sometimes rear their ugly heads but they're less active and they no longer control my life like they used to.
I'm thrilled to say I have the most beautiful relationship with food now, I no longer count calories or look at the fat contents of everything and if I eat something with sugar in I don't spend the rest of the week feeling ashamed, instead I embrace the natural amazing food that I'm blessed to eat and if consume something with refined sugar in occasionally who cares? I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I also have a better relationship with myself - I don't hate myself anymore, I don't feel angry & upset when I look in a mirror and I'm not obsessed with what other people are thinking about the way I look.
During 2015 I've felt more and more in tune with my body and my mind, I know what helps keep it feeling the happiest and healthiest and I think that's a truly magical sense that many people don't have (because they don't try). It's so amazing to feel in control and content with myself! 2015 has given me light into areas of my life that were dark - I've got a clearer idea of where I want my life to go and I've discovered huge passions that I want to incorporate into whatever career I end up having.
This year has definitely been a struggle, but the positive moments outweigh the negatives.
I feel like I'm ending 2015 with a clearer mind and a happier body than when I entered the year!
I'm off to spend time with my family, open presents, give gifts to my loved ones and eat a lot...including a delicious looking Christmas Pudding from Waitrose that I can't wait to devour! (Hey, it's all about balance!)